Dealing with Fear {Trigger Warning}

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will … Continue reading Dealing with Fear {Trigger Warning}

The Three Types of Meditation

So, yeah I know, there are a lot more than three. But we can pretty much clump them all into three categories: Focus, open-focus, and no-focus. The main difference between them is that in focus meditation you're taking one thing and making it into everything; in open-focus meditation, you're taking everything and making it into one … Continue reading The Three Types of Meditation

Balancing the Scales: Guanyin, Meditation, & Bipolar Disorder

Sometimes, I forget that I have bipolar disorder. Sometimes the shifts and swings are so gradual and nuanced, so smoothed out by practice that I don't even notice them. Other times, well, they're front and center. They rampage, they grip me like a vice. Monday night was great. I was up, I felt so energized … Continue reading Balancing the Scales: Guanyin, Meditation, & Bipolar Disorder


We can't define ourselves, others, and life based on comparisons because there's always another side to it that calls BS. Even my lifelong depression takes a hit when I ask, "Depressed compared to what? Anxious compared to what?"

Who am I when I suspend these comparisons? What do I feel? What do I want? Am I suddenly a happy, handsome, famous writer? No, but suddenly that isn't as important anymore. But not important compared to what?